Karla&Shane
08-27-2005, 11:18 AM
Story in short...We have been together on and off for 18 years now. He is back in prison on a violation and his parole was just denied with a one year set off. He has been in for two years on a 15 year sentence. I wanted to share this awesome poem that he wrote several months ago that shows the changes taking place in his heart and the realizations that he has come to..........
"Wasted Time"
The time I have spent is my biggest regret
Spent in these places I will never forget
Just sitting and thinking about the things I have done
The crying, the laughing, the hurt, and the fun
Now it's just me and my hard givin guilt
Behind a wall of enptiness I have allowed to be built
I'm trapped in my body, just wanting to run
Back to my youth with it's laughter and fun.
But the chase is over and there's no place to hide
Everything is gone including my pride
With reality suddenly right in my face
I'm scared, alone and stuck in this place
Now memories of the past falsh through my head
And my pain is obvious by the tears that I shed
I ask myslef why and where I went wrong
I guess I was weak when I should have been strong
Living for the drugs and the wings I had grown
My feelings were lost, afraid to be shown
As I look at my past, it's so easy to see
The fear that I had, afraid to be me
I'd pretend to be rugged, so fast and so cool
When actually lost like a blinded fool
I'm getting too old for this tiresome game
Of acting real hard with no sense of shame
It's time that I change and get on with my life
Fulfilling my dream for my family and wife
What my future will hold, I really don't know
But the years that I wasted are starting to show
I just live for the day when I'll get a new start
And the dreams I still hold deep in my heart
I hope I can make it, At least I have to try
Because I'm headed for death and I don't want to die.
Shane
Even better things have taken place since he wrote this poem. He got saved shortly after. FINALLY!!!!!!!!! I have been praying for this day for two years now.:clap:
"Wasted Time"
The time I have spent is my biggest regret
Spent in these places I will never forget
Just sitting and thinking about the things I have done
The crying, the laughing, the hurt, and the fun
Now it's just me and my hard givin guilt
Behind a wall of enptiness I have allowed to be built
I'm trapped in my body, just wanting to run
Back to my youth with it's laughter and fun.
But the chase is over and there's no place to hide
Everything is gone including my pride
With reality suddenly right in my face
I'm scared, alone and stuck in this place
Now memories of the past falsh through my head
And my pain is obvious by the tears that I shed
I ask myslef why and where I went wrong
I guess I was weak when I should have been strong
Living for the drugs and the wings I had grown
My feelings were lost, afraid to be shown
As I look at my past, it's so easy to see
The fear that I had, afraid to be me
I'd pretend to be rugged, so fast and so cool
When actually lost like a blinded fool
I'm getting too old for this tiresome game
Of acting real hard with no sense of shame
It's time that I change and get on with my life
Fulfilling my dream for my family and wife
What my future will hold, I really don't know
But the years that I wasted are starting to show
I just live for the day when I'll get a new start
And the dreams I still hold deep in my heart
I hope I can make it, At least I have to try
Because I'm headed for death and I don't want to die.
Shane
Even better things have taken place since he wrote this poem. He got saved shortly after. FINALLY!!!!!!!!! I have been praying for this day for two years now.:clap: