I truly thank God for who he is in my life he is my Number One. I will try not to bore you nor keep you very long, I've been with my husband 16 years and we have been to every prison, city and county jail in the tri-state area including NY. He is a repeat offender one day I may put our story up. But we are still in our season of reaping everything that we sowed. As true women of God we need to know that He is in Control of everything. I have wept through many a midnight hour where there was no comfort but from God where I could talk to anyone not even the Lord all I could do was moan.I am in a wonderful church yet no one there can truly understand what a prison wife goes through on a daily basis. There is just so much, that if you aren't in your place of Worship and Prayer with God you will fall off the map! I out of the will of God for a minute and almost committed adultery at work. I am a professional tax preparer, and this man came in and spoke"logic"to me about wasting my time, waiting, why is your life on hold etc and he made me think twice. Yeah if Tracy does really lov me why is he always locked up? and I felt that thing he told me I was beautiful, smart can he just get a hug and you know what I gave that man a hug and felt funny because he squeezed my body just right and it has been a long time since my man could hold me. Anyway it stuck cause then other spirits bolder ones would flat out ask for the cookie. God Had to show me that My body is sanctified unto my husband and his unto mine and I needed to stay in constant prayer and fellowship with him to keep my marriage on track. Understand if nothing else women who possess Christ that your first ministry is your marriage, not your kids, mamma and them, your husband. Be a good wife as God leads you, and keep Ps.1 close to your heart for those "Dear Abby's" out there. I thank God for this site, it blesses me to be able to come and listen to other sisters in wait who know what I am going through. Stay strengthened and encouraged that God has a good plan and purpose for you and your husbands lives, and that we are going through this as our testimony to help our sister's in waiting.

May God Bless and Keep His

afresh30 , thanks for posting you are so right .

AFRESH THANK YOU FOR POSTING AND SHARING YOUR STORY. I AGREE WITH SO MANY THINGS YOU SAID. NO ONE KNOWS WHAT A PRISON WIFE GOES THRU DAY TO DAY. SO MANY PEOPLE DONT WANT TO UNDERSTAND AND SO QUICK AT MAKING ASSUMPTIONS ABOUT US. IM SO GRATEFUL FOR THE LOVE OF GOD BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT KEEPS ME GOING EVERYDAY. WELCOME TO PTO AND I LOOK FORWARD TO YOUR POSTS. :)

GOD BLESS

Wow!! U know..God has a funny way of showing us things and everything you said is exactly what I have been praying about. It is so hard for my family and friends to understand what i am going thru...I tell them it is so hard and they look at me and tell me that I don't have to be in this position..I could leave and that I shouldn't have had 3 kids......It bothers me. Then just last night I craved a hug from one of my co-workers...like bad!!! I wanted to be touched, not even sexually, just hugged and held....and from what you just posted I can't believe I could betray my hubby that way. I didn't even ask for a hug of course, but just the fact that I wanted it.....UGH!!! I am so glad for your post and for this group!! I love you all and I look forward to more posts afresh!!! God does have a purpose and I know that whatever it is, it is perfect for me and my hubby and that God has our best interests at hand. Prayer works and just like Babieboo...God and prayer to HIM is the only thing that has gotten me thru this whole tragedy. Thanks so much, again!!

Love in Christ,
Megan