I do not know if this is the right place to thread this but I have been dealing with some inner feelings lately and I just wanted to explain and see what people think.
I think I am a very spiritual person, I do not go to church but I do believe in God and I am a huge believer that there are no coinsudences, I firmly believe everything happens for a reason. I believe that even if something bad happens it is to teach us a lesson.
I am the kind of person that when I have dreams they are extremly vivid, sometimes I wake up but havent finished my dream so if I think about where I was in the dream when I woke up I can fall back to sleep and pick up where I left off. Sometimes I have da ja voo, now to me the weird part isnt that I have it but that I experience it at the strangest times. I believe to an extent in physics however I have never called one on a 900 number. I had one once perdict my pregnancy and the time range when I would find out and as happy as I was to realize this woman was right, it was even stranger that what the woman perdicted in my life ,happened.
About 8 months ago my mom took me to have my cards read. She did not tell the woman I went to that we were related because my mom had been to see her before and aparently talked about me and did not want her to be able to use any of the info she gave her about me to reference to my cituations. Well it went good and she gave me some much needed insight but something else she said to me was that everybody has physic ability but most do not know how to use it much less recognize they have it, she said I did. She told me if I paid attention to the signs I would be able to use it to help me through my life.
Well lately, I`d say the past 4 months I have been to hell and back, I have become much more insightful about my life and the going ons around me. I pay attention to whats going on around me but insted of questioning what happens or asking why things happen I just try to understand the big picture,I try to find the lesson to the cituation. One other feeling I have become in touch with is, let me see if I can explain this..........
ok, heres the perfect example, my fiance is in jail right now and I found out today if they run his charges concurrent he could face 45 years under Habitiual offender status. Now normally this would upset some people, thinking the worst. I have not once had that feeling that he is gonna get anywere near that amount of time, I know it is very possable, I just do not feel that this is his purpose in life, to serve his life in prison. Now normally I can gage the extent of the outcome by my feelings towards the cituation and the times in my life before when I have been faced with life altering experiences the outcome is usually perdicted before hand.
It`s not that I know how it will turn out, but if I feel it isnt as bad as it could be, 99% of the time it isnt. Does that sound strange? I think what is different about whats going on with my beliefs these days is usually if I express my feelings to a certain cituation with someone who has a different perspective on it because they are looking at it from the out side, I would second guess my feelings thinking maybe I am just not being practicle but lately, I have not been letting other peoples opinions sway my thinking process.
I believe in my self and I am learning to trust my instinct. I have always believed since an early age if you think negitive, negitive things will happen. However if you think positive and are optimistic then good things are bound to happen you just have to truely believe anything is possable. I do not know why my gut has been leading me in this direction as far as my mans cituation goes, but I do not believe, because I havent felt the negitive, that he is going to serve a long sentence. Maybe it is not good for me to not be realistic but I do not think I am, I think what I am being is optimisticly, positive and I have faith in the LORD and I have always believed as well, he has a plan for all of us.
It is out job however, to figure out what that is. We have to be open to the posiabilities of what we think is impossable. All I know right this second is I am going to do everything I can to educate myself and learn how to put my gift to use, if not for my bennifit but for others.
I was talking to my mom today and I was telling her, what I find ironic is the more I am aware of people taking advantage of me, the more I realize how much I have taken advantage of people and it makes me want to do what ever I have to do to make amends.
I find myself realizing more and more every day that my life until now has not had much meaning to me, but in hind sight, looking back on the things I have been faced with this past year and a half, one of the biggest revelations I have had is the ole atidge, what doesnt kill us makes us stronger and after all I have been through, I AM STILL HERE.
There is a reason for that and I will not rest until I fully understand what it is I was brought into this world to do. I have taken and taken my whole life and now it is my turn to give back. Kind of like the pay it forward myth, its my turn. Maybe my way of paying it forward was my decision to do this time with my fiance.
I know it could be a longgggggg road but being with this man makes me feel whole. It encourages me to be a better person and drives me to make better chioces.
I hope I do not sound like a fruit loop, what i was wondering is if anyone has ever felt this or can even remotely relate. Your comments are welcomed and looked forward to, thanks for listening....... Chrissie :)

HI Chrissie,

I also experience deja vu moments. I have experienced them since I was a young girl. I can never remember my dreams when they are "deja vu" type dreams. I only remember the ones that seem to be trying to tell me something. Lately I believe God has been using my son to keep me at ease and to remind me that my husband will be home soon. My son is 3 years old and when he sees me down in the dumps he starts telling me his daddy will be home soon. I have also started seeing my husband in different places. Like yesterday, I was on the train on my way from an interview and I could see him standing at the other end of the train looking at me. I moved around to get a better look and he was gone. My mother-in-law and my husband's aunts have been seeing the same type of things. They see him sitting in church with me and our kids or walking up the street. I believe like you do that everything happens for a reason. That God doesn't make any mistakes. I truly believe my husband went to jail for the sole purpose of maturing into a man. You don't sound like a fruit loop to me. I understand where you are coming from for the most part. Continue to pray to God and ask him for the meaning of some of the things you don't understand. I'm sure he will send you an answer. May God bless you and your loved ones.


Shona`

Be careful Satan also gives gifts and prophetlying. Seek God for clarity. Sugargallon is 100 percent correct everything God does has purpose and meaning, check the source

Praise God on that (statement about prophetlying) afresh30. I too agree with Sugargallon when she made the statement that God allowed her husband to go to prison to mature into a man, i feel the same in my situation as well. Seek the face of God first, because once u have the Spirit of God, you are able to discern things that arent of Him.