I got home from work and my daughter called me and said she called the county jail and that my son was no longer there.

Another chapter just beginning to this nightmare. I thought my sleep was broken before, last night was the worse night yet. I really think that I am going to have to go to the doctor's and get something to help me sleep. I feel like I am just one walking open nerve. I can't think straight, I can't remember anything and I feel like what a whiner-my son is the one in prison and I bet he cannot sleep either but there is no one for him to run to for help. Blah... Blah ...blah. I do believe the anger is setting in... I can feel it boiling just below the surface and God help anyone that crosses me today. (Do I sound angry) It's because I am.

Let me tell you why I am so angry... My son is in prison for a crime he did not commit but we were scared to go to trial because the plea bargain sounded a whole lot better than the five counts they had against him.I will tell my story now. He was baby sitting and the two boys were hellions and everyone knows this... they beat the crap out of each other and my son who was baby sitting for free for this mother used a board on their butts and then when she got back the next morning he told her no way was he baby sitting again. The next day they come and arrest my son for using corporal punishment and from what I can gather the mother got really mad and really beat the one boy (I think cause she just lost her free sitter) and then blamed it on my son) He did admitt to using a board on their butts and away this whole nightmare went.

Then during this time some guys kicked in my daughters apartment door and broke things and told her they were going to kill her and she ran in the bedroom and locked the door and called 911. Well, she ID the guys that broke into her apartment and the prosecutor did nothing. They dropped these charges down to misdemeanor charge of disorderly conduct (can you believe this) they got out of jail and beat my daughter up---- and are still walking the street.

Do You understand why I am so ANGRY now? I am glad to get this injustice off my chest. It is eating me up and there is not one damn thing I can do.

Susan

Susan... I am sure we can all relate to your anger... if not in our own situations in the stories of others... the system is not consistant and not fair....
Do you have any idea where your son is yet?? I know you had said before that he wouldn't be able to call you for awhile... is he able to at least write and let you know how he is doing?? Keep us posted... you and your son are in my thoughts and prayers...
Like Donna says, when you are at the end of your rope just tie a knot and hang on.... You will both get through this.... Vent as much as needed... it does help a little...

Susan,
I know what you are feeling, I think we all do here. I got so angry yesterday because it was a bad day and I was missing my son so much. I was mad because my son is in a county prison that is 2 miles away from me, and yet I cannot see him when I want, cannot touch him, cannot hug him, cannot help him in any way and he is right up the road from me. I just feel like walking into the jail and demanding to see my son. It just makes me so mad. With my work schedule, the only day I can visit him is on Sunday for 1/2 hour. Behind glass. It just doesn't seem fair. My son is looking at about 2 years I think. He is sentenced on the 17th of this month. I think the only way we can make it through this is one day at a time and with the support of others, like the people here on this site. Hang in there.

SUSAN- I AM SORRY THAT YOU AND YOUR SON ARE HAVING TO GO THROUGH THIS. AND SO SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR DAUGHTER. HOW IS SHE DOING NOW? I THINK WE ALL KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO SO MUCH WANT TO DO SOMETHING BUT FEEL LIKE YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING AT THE SAME TIME. THIS IS VERY FRUSTRATING. THE STORY YOU TELL IS SO INDICATIVE OF HOW CORRUPT OUR CRIMINAL JUSTICE SYSTEM IS. WE ARE HERE FOR YOU TO SUPPORT YOU HOWEVER WE CAN. TAKE CARE

Thanks everyone for you responses. It makes me feel better to hear other people's concern and their own stories. I do not feel so isolated. Thanks again.

I had a message yesterday from my son, some inmate (?) who I will never forget, called me on his phone time and told me where my son was at and what his DOC number is and the address. He told me that my son cannot call for 1-2 weeks but that he is doing as well as can be expected. I sent a message back with him to my son that I am here and that I miss and love him. Thanks God for this random act of kindness. Do You think it is a message from God that there are good guys that will look out for my son? I know you all told me that there would be but ya know I really had a hard time believing it but now I have a different outlook.

Sherry, you asked about my daughter. She is doing Ok she still is afraid to go out and she is afraid to stay home. I cannot believe the injustice of this whole thing that happened to her. She is trying to stay strong for me but I know she is worried and scared. We requested an order of protection from the courts and have not heard anything more about it and its been over a week. That is a whole nother thread about trying to speak with the Judge and leaving messages with the baliff. Well I have an early morning meeting I have to run. Talk to ya all later.
Susan

Susan....
I am so glad that you heard something about your son!! I am telling you sometimes it is amazing how things get to us, but there really are a LOT of good people caught up in this system. I know when my JD was in seg and couldn't use the phone and they were confiscating our mail, he still managed to get word to me through others who were willing to help. He got a letter to another guy who mailed it out to his aunt, and she then mailed it to me... they had sent her my phone number too and she went out of her way to call me and deliver some messages.... She will forever be one of my angels...
You hang in there... Keep fighting!! And we will all keep praying...
Peace.......

Dearest Susan:

God Bless you. I too know of the anger you feel.... but Jds is absolutely correct. There are good people who are incarcerated who will try to take care of your son..... Yes, there are some bad ones, but God will protect him..... I still have inmates and previous inmates who correspond with me who have helped me in so many different situations with my son. I have found a great peace from these guys.... Keep you chin up. Don't let the system defeat you.... Two weeks won't be too bad and there will be others who will let you know where he is.... Also, call the prison. Don't be afraid to do that. Talk with your son's case worker... Tell him or her what you son is facing... They sometimes will help too.

God Bless and Keep you.

Donna