I dont know but I think it might be my fault that just about every man I get involved with beat on me.
The most current being my husband. I had kicked him out on 2/28/05 and even tho we dont live together we still seen each other. I did go out and he would go do who knows what out of town. I was told he has a girlfriend and I too have begun to see another. Well as luck would have it my husband came over at 2am on Sat. and I was sittng talking to my new friend. My husband came in with a knife and said he would kill us both. I told him the it was over and I didnt want him to come around anymore and he went crazy. He started to swing the knife and I put up my hands and took one across my left hand that allmost took my thumb off and another on my right hand. Now he on suicide watch in the county jail. In need of $2,500 to get out. I feel so sorry for him yet I know that if allowed to he would come and really harm me.
Another ex got 10 years for biting half of my lower lip off. Another went to jail for trying to run me over while I was holding my nephew. Another got 3 years for beating me up.My frist husband would beat me up all the time.
I just think it is me. Why are all these men crazy like that? I just dont get it.

Well, 2X, that's quite a record! And the question is: do you need to take a break from relationships for a bit, and talk to a professional about how you make your choices. It's not that they ever had a right to do any of those things, but that you are being attracted to traits that are dangerous. A counsellor might be able to help you with how to talk yourself out of being so comfortable with people on the edge, and how to choose more wisely.

I lived in an abusive relationship for 6 years, prior to that although I wasn't in what could be termed an abusive relationship I went for guys that treated me badly, I treated me badly. I went into that abusive relationship knowing that I would be abused because that is what I felt I deserved, I felt that I was such a bad person,that I had done so many things wrong, had did many people wrong that, being abused was what I deserved. Now obviously when I entered that relationship I didn't know that, it was through prayer and growing that I learned that about myself and when I came to the conclusion that i wasn't that awful person I thougt I was i was able to leave. I guess what I am telling you is this, it isn't your fault but what ever is in your past that makes you feel that you don't deserve to be treated better, with respect than you need to find out and forgive yourself, because beleive me when you begin to forgive yourself for putting yourself and your children if there are any and any other family member that has withstood this with you, then you can forgive him and when that happens you will know that you will never seek this type of relationship again and will seek persons in your life that will treat you with the same respect that you deserve and demand of them. Goodluck and PM me if you need additional support.

Staci

it is only you in that you attract that lesson.. you have to learn the lesson and move on!
You will attract a different sort of relationship once you have worked through whatever it is you seem to think you need out of the abusive type.

I was married to an abuser,,,, I have been without a relationship for going on 8 years now, and I really like me today and NO MAN will EVER treat me like that again!

It's not your fault at all. The men that would do these things are sick. They need some help. I was married to an abuser for 5 years. I know how awful it feels. If you would like to talk feel free to pm me...take care girl...and keep your head up! :cool: