I had to go back to the old apartment one last time to get my money from jesus. I didnt want to go and was dreading it all week. I get there and hes got a fvcking hickey on his neck, he bought all this new stuff, got a cell phone, etc. I was like "nice hickey, i see you 've been having fun", all he could say was, "you gotta have fun"... I told him that (under my breath) that its nice to see hes been whoring around so soon after breaking up. He gave me my money and that was pretty much it. It hurts me to see hes doing so well, that i was just a matter of convienience for him. And this was probably the last time i will see him, and then knowing hes already screwing someone else :( I asked him straight up "you better come clean now, tell me if you were sleeping around on me and if you werent using any (protection) i need to know" he touched my arm and was like "i dont and didnt do anything like that"... bla bla bla. Got, it hit me like a freight train. Just to think about him with someone else. I cant do it. Not yet. I am so sad. Im going to vegas tomorrow and s/b happy, but i have so much i want to tell him that i never will be able to now...i probably will write him a letter because he will never hear me out to his face... so sad.

so sorry girlie I am here if ya need to chat take care girlie

(((HUGS))) I'm sorry you are feeling so bad especially before your fun trip to Vegas. I know that must have been hard to see that he is doing well with new stuff and other things but that is your motivation to continue on for yourself so you are doing just as good as him. I hope you meet some HOTTIE in Vegas!!! Oh and I hope you hit the JACKPOT!!! Good Luck!

I'm so sorry :( I know how it feels kind of I talked to him yesterday on the phone and it was very hard,he left $ here for me and just knowing he was here but didn't leave a note or anything just money was hard
Hang in there honey

part of me wants to write a letter to him, but part of me doesnt. i feel that he cant loose his pride and admit that hes hurting or admit to any fault in this whole thing...he wont hear me out and him seeing me cry is what sets him off (being sad) but instead of comforting me like he would have done when we were together, he yells about needing "to get over this"... :(

sorry to hear of your saddness, try to have a great time in Vegas

I'm so sorry that you are feeling so much pain.. Just know that we are here for you.. I really hope that you have a great time in Vegas.

Have a great time in Vegas! This should help to clear your mind. Your idea of writing the letter is actually a good one. I have written many letters when I got something to say, but I don't mail them out, but I sure do feel better after letting it all out. Try it, you may find it therapeutic, just an idea.