my emotions are all over the map right now, first i'm mad, then i'm sad, then i'm lonely and confused, then i'm crying. this has been going on for two days now. this wasn't what i wanted when i wrote rick the letter that has caused all this. but i wasn't happy....he was getting all his needs met and i wasn't getting many of mine met. i figured it was time to talk about it but i guess, he doesn't care enough to even call or write. he hasn't even tried to contact me since i wrote the letter, that makes one feel really good! it pisses me off that i have wasted yet another 5 yrs on him. we were high school sweethearts and have a son and 2 grandchildren together which he would never have met if it wasn't for me and i found his mother for him while he was in last time. he hadn't seen her in 13 yrs. HELL, he didn't even know if she was still alive. i found her and all his siblings, too. he had no one in his life when he was in last time!!!! i wrote the letter to him on 3/5/05 and he should have gotten it by 3/11/05 and he hasn't called or written since 2/27/05. at first i thought he was a little miffed but now i know he is really angry and doesn't want me in his life. but how could i live with someone who doesn't care about my opinion and feelings. i've ranted long enough. i'll get off my soapbox now...and yes i do feel better ...thanks! Rosi

I'm so sorry Rosi! I can relate to a lot of what you said and have some of the same feelings

Hang in there

HUGS

I'm sorry sweetie Hang in there :grouphug:

You just keep stayin strong because you can make it through this bump in your life's path :D

HUGS

Mel

Hi Rosi, I'm sorry you're going thru this... I feel like I can relate a lot, especially when you said "how could i live with someone who doesn't care about my opinion and feelings"... don't feel bad about taking a chance with that letter, you did it in order to learn whether he cared the way you want to be cared for. Keep being strong.

Right now I am missing mine but then I think, huh, what am I missing? Because the way he was acting lately is nothing to miss!

Hang in there!!! It will get easier in time.

my emotions are all over the map right now, first i'm mad, then i'm sad, then i'm lonely and confused, then i'm crying. this has been going on for two days now. this wasn't what i wanted when i wrote rick the letter that has caused all this. but i wasn't happy....he was getting all his needs met and i wasn't getting many of mine met. i figured it was time to talk about it but i guess, he doesn't care enough to even call or write. he hasn't even tried to contact me since i wrote the letter, that makes one feel really good! it pisses me off that i have wasted yet another 5 yrs on him. we were high school sweethearts and have a son and 2 grandchildren together which he would never have met if it wasn't for me and i found his mother for him while he was in last time. he hadn't seen her in 13 yrs. HELL, he didn't even know if she was still alive. i found her and all his siblings, too. he had no one in his life when he was in last time!!!! i wrote the letter to him on 3/5/05 and he should have gotten it by 3/11/05 and he hasn't called or written since 2/27/05. at first i thought he was a little miffed but now i know he is really angry and doesn't want me in his life. but how could i live with someone who doesn't care about my opinion and feelings. i've ranted long enough. i'll get off my soapbox now...and yes i do feel better ...thanks! Rosi
SWEETIE, IT ANINT NOTHING BUT A THING!! I stayed in an unhappy relationship for the last 4 months where all ( all ) his needs were being met and absolutely none of mine and our sons were... that's over now!! I have to tell you , I was were you were all last week and the week before and now I have finally reached supreme pissed off stage and i wrote that last " final" letter yesterday and felt like someone took 175 pounds of my shoulders and for the first time I actually slept last night , didnt cry, and was estatic!!
I am in crontrol again, I am putting my son and myself first and it's his loss... I had to let go of my deram for a family, but Scott wasnt going to make any decisions and wanted me there as an option for when he got out!! NOT!!
He brought this on himself.. If he is alone ( and he is basically, I did everything for him, no one else was that's for sure!!! ) i dont feel the least bit bad or sorry for him. He did the crime, he can do the time.. I had hoped prison would make a man out of him in some ways and he would accept responsibility and appreciate a good woman, a good partner, the mother of one of his children.. AINT HAPPENING!! but hey, it wasnt what God meant for me, so it's all good!!! This will get better, it took me getting suprememly pissed off to get over it, but it will get better and when you make the final decision you will feel the better for it! Dont wait on him to make it for you !!! be true to yourself.
Sincerely, Patricia:thumbsup: