Sunnie
03-27-2005, 11:02 AM
I woke up this morning, wanting to sleep in, because I go to work later, and David's gramma has both of my kids even though one is not her grandchild by blood.
I woke up missing David's father. I have had dreams about him lately on what could have been if drugs had not come back into the picture and how wonderful it was BEFORE it all started and it got so bad,ugley and hurtful.
He never loved me I guess, at least not enough to change his life around for me or for his son! Yesterday was David's 2 year birthday...Easter is a hard time of year for me. I hit my own bottom with Drugs and Alcohol on Easter Sunday, 1997 8 years ago. David met his father for the first time last Easter, when BLAM right back into drugs and back into prison. I know I should feel contempt, but right now I feel anger and hurt. I just needed to get that out. I was hoping to sleep in but instead, woke up at 8:00 AM and the first thing I thought of was David's father, I guess I dreamed about him.
You all HAVE a GREAT Day!
I love you all!!
I woke up missing David's father. I have had dreams about him lately on what could have been if drugs had not come back into the picture and how wonderful it was BEFORE it all started and it got so bad,ugley and hurtful.
He never loved me I guess, at least not enough to change his life around for me or for his son! Yesterday was David's 2 year birthday...Easter is a hard time of year for me. I hit my own bottom with Drugs and Alcohol on Easter Sunday, 1997 8 years ago. David met his father for the first time last Easter, when BLAM right back into drugs and back into prison. I know I should feel contempt, but right now I feel anger and hurt. I just needed to get that out. I was hoping to sleep in but instead, woke up at 8:00 AM and the first thing I thought of was David's father, I guess I dreamed about him.
You all HAVE a GREAT Day!
I love you all!!