from a guy Jason befriended in prison. He is just a kid, who got a state bid his first time around, and since Jason is SO FAMILIAR with prisons, he kinda took this kid under his wing and watched out for him. Jason's an angel when he is clean and sober.

Well, anyways, they already got word out there that Jason's on his way back sooner or later. He told me some things to tell Jason if I see him and I said, "you will probably see him before I do". I have an idea how they found out but I'm not sure, just pretty positive.

Addiction's no fun Luna. It's tough loving someone who loves toxic substances more then themselves :(

Did you write this kid back? Poor kid, probably looked up to him and has been let down as well :(

Stacy

Addiction can be heart breaking situation for all involved. I am so sorry that you are experiencing this and I know it can not be easy at all. You just keep stayin' strong and you will prove yourself awesome!

Poor poor poor kid! You should see if he would be OK with you posting his information over in the penpals forum so he can have a great new friend!

HUGS

Mel

Luna I feel you! M's guy friends write me and want to know how come they haven't heard from him,they hope its just because he is busy.They were all really proud of him and his success so far out here.I wrote them back and told them about the break up but mail is slow so they haven't got mine yet.I have a feeling M is back to his old life style as he is not keeping up his end of the bargain we had regarding some money issues,he wouldn't do that if he were not using but honestly I don't know.I hope he is still doing well
They say things like "I know you guys will make it,he loves you so much and talked about you all the time" that just rips me apart when I hear stuff like that :(

Hang in there baby

Yes I wrote him back. I told him he would probably see Jason before I did. And yes, he looked up to him and is very disappointed. He was going to come here this summer. I talked to his mom a couple of times. A wonderful, Christian woman, who is so grateful for what Jason did for her son.

I went and got him job applications at generic places, manila envelopes, looked up addresses around the area where he lived, and sent them everthing so this kid could parole.

Jason really liked him. Maybe going back there and having to see him will open his eyes a little.

When they find him he will go to county, then one of the worst prisons in the state for two weeks, then back to his home prison. He is going to have to wonder sometime, if it is really worth it? He is an intelligent man. It has to dawn on him sooner or later.

He is an intelligent man. It has to dawn on him sooner or later. When he's ready to face reality! And when he gets sick and tired of being sick and tired. Everybody has their "bottom." I lost my very best friend to addiction. Her "bottom" was death. I PRAY for others out there that they get to there's BEFORE death. My husband's was prison.

I've learned, we can love and support them emotionally, but for US to stay healthy, we have to do that from a distance. My door was ALWAYS open for my husband, but he HAD to clean himself up BEFORE he could walk back thru it.

Hopefully this kid will find his own way and make it out here with positive influences.

Stacy

His mother has totally prepared herself to be burying him. He has come close a few times. This time though, things are bad in his realm and we are afraid for him. But we have prepared for anything.

But we have prepared for anything. As much as we prepare, the pain is still quite raw. We are here for you, if this is the case in his journey with addiction.

Stacy