lunachild
03-09-2005, 10:47 AM
the other night. There was a message on my voice mail, for a collect call, but no name. Only two of my friends would call collect, I don't accept and call them back. Not to many people have my number. It was Friday night and neither one of them tried to call me. I wish they would catch him. This is spooky. He's not in the least dangerous, but I just want to be rid of him.
One good thing that came out of this?, and we both agree, is Jason's mom and I meeting each other. We were on the phone for an hour yesterday and we were laughing so hard, we were crying. She told me, "one day Jason is going to wake up and know what he lost". She told me she thought I was beautiful and looked great, and I always dress so nice. She said, "Jason has the problem, not you". She said the beauty I have on the inside, makes the outside that much prettier. And she is crazier than me, really. We are going out to lunch next week, and she is coming up here this summer for a day. If I am downtown, I always stop to see her. She's like me, just f******SAY IT. Who cares? I love her:) I know why Jason tried to keep us apart. Because she would have told me things and he would have been gone before this.
For those wondering(or anyone that took a bet;)) I am doing better every day. No more chaos, or more pain, no more knowing, it has been a blessed relief. My kids are doing so much better. Mom feels good so they do. They hated how he was hurting me. He had to go eventually. It was coming to a head fast. I wasn't going to take it anymore. I was done. I'm getting that mountain attitude and mountain mouth back, that I lost a long time ago. Being among these people I have known all their lives, my family, MY BROTHER!!!!!:), has been what I needed. Alone in the woods to recoup my spirit. I am reconnecting with old friends, good friends and just made a new one.
I am getting so much accomplished. I was having some money issues and 170 dollars, in back SSI for my son and two child supports showed up in my account. My best friend and her husband came over yesterday and told me I can buy this car he has for 50 dollars a month. A 93 Pontiac Sunfire, maroon/beige int., 3.5 lt. engine, in mint condition and meticiously maintained, for 700 dollars. I am just floating. Everything is going so good. I am getting to where I wanted to go and nothing is impeding my progress. He actually did me a favor. I held on to prayer and faith, I told God, "You always have my back and you have got me through worse than this.....and I have felt nothing but peace and all my inner senses are coming fore again. I realize this is his problem and there is nothing I can do. I have to move on. God is laying a path before me and I am going thataway. Maybe I will get my degree and work to do something about the prison system. Deal with the problem!!!!
One good thing that came out of this?, and we both agree, is Jason's mom and I meeting each other. We were on the phone for an hour yesterday and we were laughing so hard, we were crying. She told me, "one day Jason is going to wake up and know what he lost". She told me she thought I was beautiful and looked great, and I always dress so nice. She said, "Jason has the problem, not you". She said the beauty I have on the inside, makes the outside that much prettier. And she is crazier than me, really. We are going out to lunch next week, and she is coming up here this summer for a day. If I am downtown, I always stop to see her. She's like me, just f******SAY IT. Who cares? I love her:) I know why Jason tried to keep us apart. Because she would have told me things and he would have been gone before this.
For those wondering(or anyone that took a bet;)) I am doing better every day. No more chaos, or more pain, no more knowing, it has been a blessed relief. My kids are doing so much better. Mom feels good so they do. They hated how he was hurting me. He had to go eventually. It was coming to a head fast. I wasn't going to take it anymore. I was done. I'm getting that mountain attitude and mountain mouth back, that I lost a long time ago. Being among these people I have known all their lives, my family, MY BROTHER!!!!!:), has been what I needed. Alone in the woods to recoup my spirit. I am reconnecting with old friends, good friends and just made a new one.
I am getting so much accomplished. I was having some money issues and 170 dollars, in back SSI for my son and two child supports showed up in my account. My best friend and her husband came over yesterday and told me I can buy this car he has for 50 dollars a month. A 93 Pontiac Sunfire, maroon/beige int., 3.5 lt. engine, in mint condition and meticiously maintained, for 700 dollars. I am just floating. Everything is going so good. I am getting to where I wanted to go and nothing is impeding my progress. He actually did me a favor. I held on to prayer and faith, I told God, "You always have my back and you have got me through worse than this.....and I have felt nothing but peace and all my inner senses are coming fore again. I realize this is his problem and there is nothing I can do. I have to move on. God is laying a path before me and I am going thataway. Maybe I will get my degree and work to do something about the prison system. Deal with the problem!!!!