lunachild
02-20-2005, 08:43 PM
I've had enough. More than enough. I am starting to feel like I did whenever I had to face my ex. I fear Jason and how he makes me feel about myself. I don't want to see him.
After I talked to a PTO friend, she knows who she is:), his mother called. (The phone call that came in?)
Well she asked me when I had seen Jason last. I told her yesterday morning.
She told me Jason's sister had called her, hysterical, because Jason showed up at her house this afternoon, couldn't even talk or stand up. With some girl in a car I might add. He's hitting it again. He also has a 9 o'clock curfew.
I called his PO and turned him in. If he doesn't show up Tuesday at the PO office, they are going to issue a warrent for his arrest. His mother and sister are done. They are not even going to talk to him. He had it made here. We were making plans and getting stuff accomplished. The most beautiful place to live. He torpedoed that. I can't do this anymore.
I love him but I can't go on like this. He is avoiding me, saying mean things to me, taking off for days at a time. He is trying to blame all our problems on my mental health issues and I ain't having it. My ex blamed me for everything. It is his responsibility to take care of himself. He needs to grow up.
His sister apoligized to me for him saying the things he has to me, and I told her don't ever apoligize for him. He has to do that. It's not your fault or my fault. It's his problem. I told them both, tough love. They agree. He had everything going for him here. I thought he was going to make it.
Right now I am so mad, I'm zoomin. But, overall, I think I am doing good. I just feel like I made a positive move for my life. I am sure the pain will set in. I have a lot of support. A few phone calls and I would have a redneck calvary here:) I am worried about him coming here like he was at his sisters. His PO said to call the state police if he shows up here like that. I have a crazy a$$ friend staying here now. Jasons not violent, but I don't know his state of mind or what he is doing.
I am going to write everyone I know about trying to get him into a theraputic community. He is going to lose two months street time and add that to what he has left on parole he has time for a community. It is totally immersed counceling and drug rehab for 1-18 months. He'll be in a med. security prison but all they do all day is counceling and drug rehab.
He's going to hate me, but maybe, some day, he will realize just how much I actually did love him.
After I talked to a PTO friend, she knows who she is:), his mother called. (The phone call that came in?)
Well she asked me when I had seen Jason last. I told her yesterday morning.
She told me Jason's sister had called her, hysterical, because Jason showed up at her house this afternoon, couldn't even talk or stand up. With some girl in a car I might add. He's hitting it again. He also has a 9 o'clock curfew.
I called his PO and turned him in. If he doesn't show up Tuesday at the PO office, they are going to issue a warrent for his arrest. His mother and sister are done. They are not even going to talk to him. He had it made here. We were making plans and getting stuff accomplished. The most beautiful place to live. He torpedoed that. I can't do this anymore.
I love him but I can't go on like this. He is avoiding me, saying mean things to me, taking off for days at a time. He is trying to blame all our problems on my mental health issues and I ain't having it. My ex blamed me for everything. It is his responsibility to take care of himself. He needs to grow up.
His sister apoligized to me for him saying the things he has to me, and I told her don't ever apoligize for him. He has to do that. It's not your fault or my fault. It's his problem. I told them both, tough love. They agree. He had everything going for him here. I thought he was going to make it.
Right now I am so mad, I'm zoomin. But, overall, I think I am doing good. I just feel like I made a positive move for my life. I am sure the pain will set in. I have a lot of support. A few phone calls and I would have a redneck calvary here:) I am worried about him coming here like he was at his sisters. His PO said to call the state police if he shows up here like that. I have a crazy a$$ friend staying here now. Jasons not violent, but I don't know his state of mind or what he is doing.
I am going to write everyone I know about trying to get him into a theraputic community. He is going to lose two months street time and add that to what he has left on parole he has time for a community. It is totally immersed counceling and drug rehab for 1-18 months. He'll be in a med. security prison but all they do all day is counceling and drug rehab.
He's going to hate me, but maybe, some day, he will realize just how much I actually did love him.