Budwoman
04-25-2002, 04:02 PM
HELLO ALL:
I HAVE ASKED MY MOM (BUDWOMAN) TO POST THIS STORY SO THAT ALL OF YOU MIGHT READ IT. IT IS NOT A PRETTY STORY BUT IT IS MY LIFE.
I AM INCARCERATED IN THE NORTH CAROLINA DEPT OF CORRECTIONS IN LINCOLNTON, N.C. I HAVE BEEN INCARCERATED SINCE NOVEMBER 1990.. MY ADDRESS IS BUTCH C. CLARK #0076993 - 464 PRISON CAMP ROAD - LINCOLNTON, N.C. 28092.
ON OCTOBER 22, 1990, I SHOT AND KILLED MY WIFE'S BOYFRIEND. I ALSO SHOT HER BROTHER AND WOUNDED HIM. I HAVE LIVED THIS FACT FOR 12 YEARS AND WILL NEVER FORGET IT. I HAVE FORGIVEN MYSELF BUT IT IS STILL A HARD THING TO ACCEPT. HERE IS WHAT HAPPENED.
I MOVED TO FLORIDA TO FIND A JOB TO SUPPORT MY WIFE AND HER SON BECAUSE I COULD NOT FIND ONE HERE IN NC. I HAD THE UNDERSTANDING WITH HER THAT I WOULD COME BACK TO GET HER WHEN I GOT A JOB. THIS WAS IN JULY 1990. I CAME HOME FOR HER IN AUGUST. SHE REFUSED TO GO WITH ME BECAUSE HER MOTHER HAD TOLD HER THAT SHE WOULD TAKE HER SON AWAY IF SHE MOVED TO FLORIDA WITH ME. SO, I LEFT HER HERE AND WENT BACK TO FLORIDA. IN OCTOBER 1990, SHE CALLED MY MOM WANTING MY PHONE NUMBER. SHE CALLED ME CRYING. SHE ASKED ME TO COME BACK AND GET HER AND TOLD ME SHE LOVED ME AND WANTED TO GET BACK TOGETHER. (I KNEW NOTHING OF HER BOYFRIEND) I WENT BACK TO NC. I WENT TO HER BROTHER'S HOUSE TO PICK HER UP. WE WENT OUT TO EAT AND DROVE AROUND AWHILE. WE TALKED AND SHE TOLD ME SHE WANTED TO LEAVE WITH ME FOR FLORIDA BUT SHE NEEDED TO GO TO HER BROTHERS HOUSE TO PICK UP HER SON WHO I LOVED VERY DEARLY.
WE WENT BACK TO THE HOUSE. I SAT IN MY TRUCK WAITING FOR HER TO GO IN AND BRING HER SON OUT WITH HER AND HER CLOTHES. I HEARD HER SCREAM. I GOT OUT OF THE TRUCK(NO GUN IN MY HAND) AND WENT INTO THE APARTMENT. AS I OPENED THE UNLOCKED DOOR I SAW HER STRUGGLING WITH A MAN THAT I DID NOT KNOW, HE HAD A SHOTGUN. I RAN TO HER AND TRIED TO TAKE THE SHOTGUN OUT OF HIS HANDS. AS I WAS STRUGGLING WITH HIM, HER BROTHER CAME UP BEHIND ME AND HIT ME ON THE SIDE OF THE HEAD WITH A BASEBALL BAT. IT BROK MY JAW. COMPLETELY SEVERING IT FROM MY JAW BONE. I GOT LOOSE AND RAN TO MY TRUCK. THE WINDOW WAS DOWN I DOVE INTO THE TRUCK WHERE I HAD A 357 MAGNUM UNDER THE SEAT. I GRABBED MY GUN AND CAME OUT OF THE WINDOW. I LOOKED AND SAW BOTH THE MAN WITH THE SHOTGUN IN HIS HANDS AND HER BROTHER WITH THE BASEBALL BAT COMMING AT ME. I BEGAN SHOOTING.... I TOTALLY EMPTIED MY GUN AT THEM BOTH. I KILLED THE MAN AND WOUNDED THE BROTHER. I WAS SO DAZED AND SCARED I REALLY DID NOT KNOW WHAT I WAS DOING. I RAN.... (BAD DECISION) I DROVE BACK TO FLORIDA.. I CALLED MY MOM ON THE WAY AND TOLD HER WHAT HAD HAPPENED. I DID NOT KNOW WHERE I WAS OR WHERE I WAS GOING. THE POLICE HAD ALREADY BEEN TO HER HOUSE IN FULL FORCE. I GOT TO FLORIDA AND WENT TO MY DAD'S HOUSE. I DID NOT TURN MYSELF IN FOR TWO WEEKS.
AFTER TURNING MYSELF IN, I WAS TAKEN TO TAMPA GENERAL HOSPITAL TO HAVE SURGERY ON MY JAW THAT WAS BROKEN BY THE BASEBALL BAT. I HAVE THE MEDICAL RECORDS OF THAT SURGERY. WHEN I WENT TO COURT, I HAD AN ALCOHOLIC ATTORNEY AND ANOTHER COURT APPOINTED ATTORNEY WHO DID NOT PRESENT MY CASE AS SELF DEFENSE. THE MEDICAL RECORDS WERE NEVER BROUGHT OUT. I WAS CHARGED WITH FIRST DEGREE MURDER. I WAS CONVICTED OF MANSLAUGHTER AND ASSAULT WITH A DEADLY WEAPON WITH INTENT TO KILL. MY SENTENCE WAS 52 YEARS.. THE MAXIMUM SENTENCE ANYONE CAN RECEIVED FOR THESE CONVICTIONS. THIS HAPPENED BECAUSE I HAD BEEN IN TROUBLE AS A TEENAGER.
MY REGRETS ARE GREAT.... I WISH I HAD MADE DIFFERENT DECISIONS AT THIS POINT IN MY LIFE. I DID NOT. I DO OUTREACH PROGRAMS IN PRISON FOR YOUNG PEOPLE IN HOPES I CAN HELP THEM NOT MAKE THESE SAME DECISIONS. I TRY EACH AND EVERY DAY TO LIVE THE LIFE I WANT TO HAVE WHEN I DO FINALLY GET TO GO HOME. I HAVE MET A WONDERFUL WOMAN WHO WORKED FOR THE DEPT OF CORRECTIONS AT ONE OF THE LOCATIONS I WAS AT. WE HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE VERY DEEPLY AND I WANT TO BE ABLE TO GET MARRIED AND SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH HER. I WAS A FOOTBALL STAR IN HIGHSCHOOL. I WON ALL SORTS OF HONORS. I HAVE A 2 YEAR COLLEGE DEGREE. I HAVE AN ELECTRICAL DEGREE. I HAVE TAKEN PHYCOLOGY AND HAVE LEARNED MANY THINGS WHILE IN PRISON.
I GET FLUSTRATED AND SOMETIMES AM ANGRY, BUT I REALLY DO FIGHT THIS. I HAVE TAKEN ANGER MANAGEMENT SEVERAL TIMES. MY MOM AND STEP DAD HAVE STOOD BESIDE ME ALL THE 12 YEARS. I HAVE TWO BROTHERS AND THEY COME ON OCCASION. THEY HAVE THEIR OWN FAMILIES AND ITS HARD FOR THEM TO VISIT OFTEN. ALSO, I THINK THEY HAVE SOME BITTERNESS TOWARD ME FOR WHAT HAS HAPPENED.
TO ALL OF YOU ON THIS SITE.... MY PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU. BEING AN INMATE IS NOT EASY..... UNDERSTAND YOUR CHILDREN AND YOUR SPOUSES AND WHEN THEY HAVE BAD DAYS IN PRISON, LOVE THEM ANYWAY..... WE DO NOT KNOW OR UNDERSTAND AT THIS POINT, WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH. MY MOM AND RENEE AND TRIED TO LET ME KNOW THIS ON MANY OCCASIONS, BUT BECAUSE I HAVE NOT BEEN ON THE OUTSIDE IN SO MANY YEARS, IT IS HARD TO UNDERSTAND.
I LOVE MY FAMILY AND MY FIANCEE. THEY ARE MY LIFE.... IF IT WERE NOT FOR THEM, I WOULD NEVER HAVE SURVIVED THIS PRISON SITUATION. PLEASE STAND BY YOUR LOVED ONES. WHEN THEY DO GET HOME, THEY WILL BE MUCH BETTER PEOPLE IF YOU DO THAT.
HERE IS MY STORY. YES, IT IS A BAD ONE AND I HAVE COMMITTED THE WORST OFFENSE THAT ANYONE CAN DO. I HAVE ASKED FOR FORGIVENESS FROM MY MAKER. I HAVE FORGIVEN MYSELF. I HOPE THAT THE OUTSIDE WORLD CAN FORGIVE ME TOO. I WANT TO COME HOME SOON AND HOPE BEYOUND HOPE THAT THIS CAN HAPPEN.
MY PRAYERS AND LOVE TO ALL OF YOU
BUTCH C. CLARK
#0076993
LINCOLNTON CORRECTIONAL CENTER
LINCOLNTON, N.C. 28092
I HAVE ASKED MY MOM (BUDWOMAN) TO POST THIS STORY SO THAT ALL OF YOU MIGHT READ IT. IT IS NOT A PRETTY STORY BUT IT IS MY LIFE.
I AM INCARCERATED IN THE NORTH CAROLINA DEPT OF CORRECTIONS IN LINCOLNTON, N.C. I HAVE BEEN INCARCERATED SINCE NOVEMBER 1990.. MY ADDRESS IS BUTCH C. CLARK #0076993 - 464 PRISON CAMP ROAD - LINCOLNTON, N.C. 28092.
ON OCTOBER 22, 1990, I SHOT AND KILLED MY WIFE'S BOYFRIEND. I ALSO SHOT HER BROTHER AND WOUNDED HIM. I HAVE LIVED THIS FACT FOR 12 YEARS AND WILL NEVER FORGET IT. I HAVE FORGIVEN MYSELF BUT IT IS STILL A HARD THING TO ACCEPT. HERE IS WHAT HAPPENED.
I MOVED TO FLORIDA TO FIND A JOB TO SUPPORT MY WIFE AND HER SON BECAUSE I COULD NOT FIND ONE HERE IN NC. I HAD THE UNDERSTANDING WITH HER THAT I WOULD COME BACK TO GET HER WHEN I GOT A JOB. THIS WAS IN JULY 1990. I CAME HOME FOR HER IN AUGUST. SHE REFUSED TO GO WITH ME BECAUSE HER MOTHER HAD TOLD HER THAT SHE WOULD TAKE HER SON AWAY IF SHE MOVED TO FLORIDA WITH ME. SO, I LEFT HER HERE AND WENT BACK TO FLORIDA. IN OCTOBER 1990, SHE CALLED MY MOM WANTING MY PHONE NUMBER. SHE CALLED ME CRYING. SHE ASKED ME TO COME BACK AND GET HER AND TOLD ME SHE LOVED ME AND WANTED TO GET BACK TOGETHER. (I KNEW NOTHING OF HER BOYFRIEND) I WENT BACK TO NC. I WENT TO HER BROTHER'S HOUSE TO PICK HER UP. WE WENT OUT TO EAT AND DROVE AROUND AWHILE. WE TALKED AND SHE TOLD ME SHE WANTED TO LEAVE WITH ME FOR FLORIDA BUT SHE NEEDED TO GO TO HER BROTHERS HOUSE TO PICK UP HER SON WHO I LOVED VERY DEARLY.
WE WENT BACK TO THE HOUSE. I SAT IN MY TRUCK WAITING FOR HER TO GO IN AND BRING HER SON OUT WITH HER AND HER CLOTHES. I HEARD HER SCREAM. I GOT OUT OF THE TRUCK(NO GUN IN MY HAND) AND WENT INTO THE APARTMENT. AS I OPENED THE UNLOCKED DOOR I SAW HER STRUGGLING WITH A MAN THAT I DID NOT KNOW, HE HAD A SHOTGUN. I RAN TO HER AND TRIED TO TAKE THE SHOTGUN OUT OF HIS HANDS. AS I WAS STRUGGLING WITH HIM, HER BROTHER CAME UP BEHIND ME AND HIT ME ON THE SIDE OF THE HEAD WITH A BASEBALL BAT. IT BROK MY JAW. COMPLETELY SEVERING IT FROM MY JAW BONE. I GOT LOOSE AND RAN TO MY TRUCK. THE WINDOW WAS DOWN I DOVE INTO THE TRUCK WHERE I HAD A 357 MAGNUM UNDER THE SEAT. I GRABBED MY GUN AND CAME OUT OF THE WINDOW. I LOOKED AND SAW BOTH THE MAN WITH THE SHOTGUN IN HIS HANDS AND HER BROTHER WITH THE BASEBALL BAT COMMING AT ME. I BEGAN SHOOTING.... I TOTALLY EMPTIED MY GUN AT THEM BOTH. I KILLED THE MAN AND WOUNDED THE BROTHER. I WAS SO DAZED AND SCARED I REALLY DID NOT KNOW WHAT I WAS DOING. I RAN.... (BAD DECISION) I DROVE BACK TO FLORIDA.. I CALLED MY MOM ON THE WAY AND TOLD HER WHAT HAD HAPPENED. I DID NOT KNOW WHERE I WAS OR WHERE I WAS GOING. THE POLICE HAD ALREADY BEEN TO HER HOUSE IN FULL FORCE. I GOT TO FLORIDA AND WENT TO MY DAD'S HOUSE. I DID NOT TURN MYSELF IN FOR TWO WEEKS.
AFTER TURNING MYSELF IN, I WAS TAKEN TO TAMPA GENERAL HOSPITAL TO HAVE SURGERY ON MY JAW THAT WAS BROKEN BY THE BASEBALL BAT. I HAVE THE MEDICAL RECORDS OF THAT SURGERY. WHEN I WENT TO COURT, I HAD AN ALCOHOLIC ATTORNEY AND ANOTHER COURT APPOINTED ATTORNEY WHO DID NOT PRESENT MY CASE AS SELF DEFENSE. THE MEDICAL RECORDS WERE NEVER BROUGHT OUT. I WAS CHARGED WITH FIRST DEGREE MURDER. I WAS CONVICTED OF MANSLAUGHTER AND ASSAULT WITH A DEADLY WEAPON WITH INTENT TO KILL. MY SENTENCE WAS 52 YEARS.. THE MAXIMUM SENTENCE ANYONE CAN RECEIVED FOR THESE CONVICTIONS. THIS HAPPENED BECAUSE I HAD BEEN IN TROUBLE AS A TEENAGER.
MY REGRETS ARE GREAT.... I WISH I HAD MADE DIFFERENT DECISIONS AT THIS POINT IN MY LIFE. I DID NOT. I DO OUTREACH PROGRAMS IN PRISON FOR YOUNG PEOPLE IN HOPES I CAN HELP THEM NOT MAKE THESE SAME DECISIONS. I TRY EACH AND EVERY DAY TO LIVE THE LIFE I WANT TO HAVE WHEN I DO FINALLY GET TO GO HOME. I HAVE MET A WONDERFUL WOMAN WHO WORKED FOR THE DEPT OF CORRECTIONS AT ONE OF THE LOCATIONS I WAS AT. WE HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE VERY DEEPLY AND I WANT TO BE ABLE TO GET MARRIED AND SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH HER. I WAS A FOOTBALL STAR IN HIGHSCHOOL. I WON ALL SORTS OF HONORS. I HAVE A 2 YEAR COLLEGE DEGREE. I HAVE AN ELECTRICAL DEGREE. I HAVE TAKEN PHYCOLOGY AND HAVE LEARNED MANY THINGS WHILE IN PRISON.
I GET FLUSTRATED AND SOMETIMES AM ANGRY, BUT I REALLY DO FIGHT THIS. I HAVE TAKEN ANGER MANAGEMENT SEVERAL TIMES. MY MOM AND STEP DAD HAVE STOOD BESIDE ME ALL THE 12 YEARS. I HAVE TWO BROTHERS AND THEY COME ON OCCASION. THEY HAVE THEIR OWN FAMILIES AND ITS HARD FOR THEM TO VISIT OFTEN. ALSO, I THINK THEY HAVE SOME BITTERNESS TOWARD ME FOR WHAT HAS HAPPENED.
TO ALL OF YOU ON THIS SITE.... MY PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU. BEING AN INMATE IS NOT EASY..... UNDERSTAND YOUR CHILDREN AND YOUR SPOUSES AND WHEN THEY HAVE BAD DAYS IN PRISON, LOVE THEM ANYWAY..... WE DO NOT KNOW OR UNDERSTAND AT THIS POINT, WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH. MY MOM AND RENEE AND TRIED TO LET ME KNOW THIS ON MANY OCCASIONS, BUT BECAUSE I HAVE NOT BEEN ON THE OUTSIDE IN SO MANY YEARS, IT IS HARD TO UNDERSTAND.
I LOVE MY FAMILY AND MY FIANCEE. THEY ARE MY LIFE.... IF IT WERE NOT FOR THEM, I WOULD NEVER HAVE SURVIVED THIS PRISON SITUATION. PLEASE STAND BY YOUR LOVED ONES. WHEN THEY DO GET HOME, THEY WILL BE MUCH BETTER PEOPLE IF YOU DO THAT.
HERE IS MY STORY. YES, IT IS A BAD ONE AND I HAVE COMMITTED THE WORST OFFENSE THAT ANYONE CAN DO. I HAVE ASKED FOR FORGIVENESS FROM MY MAKER. I HAVE FORGIVEN MYSELF. I HOPE THAT THE OUTSIDE WORLD CAN FORGIVE ME TOO. I WANT TO COME HOME SOON AND HOPE BEYOUND HOPE THAT THIS CAN HAPPEN.
MY PRAYERS AND LOVE TO ALL OF YOU
BUTCH C. CLARK
#0076993
LINCOLNTON CORRECTIONAL CENTER
LINCOLNTON, N.C. 28092