Ok, well, on Monday I got the letter I had been waiting for the past 4 months. It's the letter from my ex- Rick, whom after so many problems, and endless drama I finally decided to leave. Anyhow, after a few months, I finally got a letter from him and just wanted to share with you all because I told you all at that time that I'd let you know and keep you posted as to what happened after I sent him my "breaking up" letter. For your reference my former screen name was Lily_&_Rick....Here is the letter in its entirety.....

Respectable and Lovin' Homegirl of Mine,
Ms. Lilly,

My greetings of love, trust, respect, loyalty, and friendship.....
First than anything, receive a strong but very respectful hug and kiss from non other than your firme homeboy, the one who always has you in his thoughts and dreams. After these short but very respectful and sincere hellos with your permission I go on to the next. I hope when you receive this letter in your beautiful hands I will find you in the best of health and highest of spirits, likewise my same wishes and dreams for all your beloved family at your pad. Well as for me in the best of health couldnt be better likewise all my family at my pad and all those who give me continous support to stay and keep me strong mentally thanks to Our Lady of Guadalupe Amen! Well here I find myself shootin you these few lines with the purpose of sending you my hellos and response to your more than well received letter. I want to send you my most sincere apologies if I've taken a while to write these lines my intentions werent to keep you waitin. The purpose of my ink and visit is to let you know that your letter was well understood and your decision is very well respected. The time our love lasted you made me real happy and no matter where I am at I will never forget you and in our Goodbye I wish you the best and may you find all the happiness that all those good feelings and love be with you this year always and forever. Eventhough your not with me or at my side, thats the only thing I could wish you, though the time and years can change so much, one thing is certain I will always love you, I will always have thoughts and memories of us. Their is no other hyna who could take your place, even if their was you will always hold a special place in my heart. I could only wish that you find true love and happiness. I'll cut this letter short, I appreciate you taking some of your precious time to read this letter that I wont take up more. I'll end it with a "beso en la frente como mi bendicion y que DIOS me la protega sin mas ni menos" ( kiss on the forehead as my blessing and may GOD protect you nothing more, nothing less.~ translation is somethin like that.)

P.S. Whenever you need me I'll be here for you.

Respectfully
Your Homeboy For Life,
Rick

Well, like I said I wanted to share this with you all. I know a lot of you may not know "the story," but to those of you who do.... this is the end.... the "final goodbye." Since my breakup, as I had assumed I'd never get a response from Rick....I have found someone who truly does make me really happy, who respects and loves me, and for that I am thankful to GOD.

The problem now is that my new man, Rene, thinks that this relationship cannot end here... and that as soon as Rick gets out he'll be coming out to look for me and try to patch things up. I dunno what do you all conclude from this letter? I think that it ends here, but their is truly no telling. How can I convince my new man that this is it, and that he should have no worries???

Well....With this I close this very emotional, and difficult chapter in my life. Thanks for listening ladies, and for the much appreciated advice and support you all have given me all this time.


I threw in a poll for you all to let me know what you all think... sounds a lil crazy and lame..lol. I apologize for this post being so long. Thanks for reading!

I always like to think the best of people, and because of that I want to give him the benefit of the doubt. But I do not know him like you do, so I am not 100% sure if he is letting go for good. I want to thank you though for sharing this with us :)

Has His Writin Style Aalways Been Like This ???????

I Cant Answer The Poll , Until I Know .......

QQin4meboo- Yea, his writing style has always been like this...with one exception that was even odd to me. It's usually mostly in Spanish, but now it was pretty much all in English. But the writing style and the way he expresses himself is the same in both English and Spanish.

Its Very Hard To Say, From Experience, They Always Say One Thing And Mean The Opposite. Does He By Any Chance Know That You've Met Somebody New?

Sometimes a change of heart comes later on down the road. Time will tell in this matter.

i think u have found a true friend for life which is very hard to find

I also like to think the best in people, therefore, I think he is doing his best to accept the situation, and move forward.

I can tell he cares about you, but it doesn't sound like a "sick love"! Hopefully he will move on, and let you have the happiness you have found.

How much time does he have left? That may be a big factor in his choice to find you post release.

Hey Lily,

I haven't been posting much lately, but I had to take the time to respond to this. This has been a long road for you. Unfortunately, there is no telling what Rick's intentions are. At this point he may not even know what they are. There is really no way to convince Rene except through time. Just let him know you care and be there for him. Don't give him a reason to doubt you b/c you can't control Rick. As long as he knows that you will be with him no matter what Rick does, it's all good. How do you feel? Do you think there's a chance all the old feelings will come back if he tries to get with you when he gets out? I am happy that you found someone who respects you and the last picture I saw, you are lookin good. Stay blessed.

Sounds pretty sincere to me. I don't know him of course, but it sounds as if he may truly be one of the 'good guys'. It sounds as if he put alot of thought into this, and is respecting your wishes. Good luck with Rene, and may all your brightest hopes come true. Embrace your memories, and go make new ones. My best to you and Rene.

Lilly...Only God knows if this is the end or not.
He does sound very sincere. It is obvious that he cares about you ALOT.
I think that there is a possilbility that he might try to get you back when he gets out. But once he see's that you are truly happy with Rene...I think he will step back...if in fact you ARE truly happy with Rene.
I wish you nothing but the best. It is also quite obvious that you care for Rick...whether or not there is still something there...only God knows. I think that all of your questions will be answered the day that you see Rick again face to face, if that ever happens. At that moment what you feel in your heart will be the answer.

His writing style reminds me of my cousins style, who just recently got out of prison...I think it's a South Texas thing...all my family is from Robstown, TX...

take care!!!

Lil.You never knw what God has in store for you.Just belive that it will be rewarding and that his will for you may be done.Everything is going to work itself out don't worry.No matter who.Love will find it's way.God BLess

Thanks ladies so much for your responses. Some of u have asked me some questions and here go my answers.

Crazy4Albert- At the time I wrote MY goodbye letter to him I wasnt with anybody yet, so I'm presuming that he doesnt know that I'm with someone.

Coolchik4sure- His release date is June 2008. So he still has quite a bit of time to go, unless he goes up for parole and gets it in December this yr.

jubaby- Thanks for taking time to respond to this. You know what a rollercoaster this has been for me. But its all over, and its like a huge burden has been lifted off my shoulders... this was the closure I had waited for and needed. I am beyond happy with Rene, he is just the greatest guy on the face of the earth for me, couldnt ask for more. I dont have any feelings for Rick whatsoever, only perhaps those of a friend but even then I wouldnt overstep my boundaries becuz I respect Rene so much to do that. I know it would bother him if that happened, and I cant see myself disrespecting him like that. But I am certain that my feelings for Rene are true and pure that nothing only GOD almighty can interfere with that becuz I truly do luv him with all my being. :)

Wtg4MikeP- I am indeed very very happy with Rene. He makes me just so happy, its a feeling I cant even begin to describe. And I'd have to agree that I do care about Rick's feelings even though at times he didnt take mine into consideration. I think its basically that, being considerate, it was 2 long years with him, and I dunno.... its just weird. What I do know for a fact is that its NOT love. I dont plan on seeing him again, if it ever occurs it would be by chance maybe at a store or sumthin... but not planned. My luv belongs to one person... Rene, and hopefully our bond is so strong and pure that it will continue for the rest of our lives.


Well thanks again ladies. Only GOD like u all have said knows what he has in store for me. But I thank him with all my heart for sending me the GREATEST SWEETEST ANGEL... RENE! In the meantime, my heart belongs to only him, and nobody else but him. :)

The problem now is that my new man, Rene, thinks that this relationship cannot end here... and that as soon as Rick gets out he'll be coming out to look for me and try to patch things up. I dunno what do you all conclude from this letter? I think that it ends here, but their is truly no telling. How can I convince my new man that this is it, and that he should have no worries???

Greetings Lily sweeite.

So what if he comes back and tries to get with you. Tell Renee' that you are his, he is yours and nothing Rick can/will do will come betwween you two. Tell him you can never control Rick's actions, but you dang sure can control your own when it comes to Rick. And don't worry about what might happen in the future. If you live long enough you will learn that ANYHTING is possible.

I'm glad you finally heard from him. It gives you a better sense of the closure you were seeking. And i'm glad to hear from you too. Take care of yourself Lily. Remember we are still on for a g2g at the end of March.

~smooches~

Jubaby i see we were thinking along the same lines. There have been a few times you have said what i was thinking. Are you my kindred spirit?

Hey Lily,

I haven't been posting much lately, but I had to take the time to respond to this. This has been a long road for you. Unfortunately, there is no telling what Rick's intentions are. At this point he may not even know what they are. There is really no way to convince Rene except through time. Just let him know you care and be there for him. Don't give him a reason to doubt you b/c you can't control Rick. As long as he knows that you will be with him no matter what Rick does, it's all good. How do you feel? Do you think there's a chance all the old feelings will come back if he tries to get with you when he gets out? I am happy that you found someone who respects you and the last picture I saw, you are lookin good. Stay blessed.

Thanks MISSONE!!! I couldnt have come up with a better way to say that. Think I may have to direct quote u when I talk to Rene about this issue again. I was just stumped, actually guess u could say kinda shocked at seeing that letter sitting in my box. But its all good, I know where my heart is. Oh....And u know we are most definitely havin that G2G no doubt.

I voted maybe. He sounds like he is really hurting. I hope he does come back and you are receptive to him. God Bless

T_N_T

Tears N Texas- I dont think their is even a slight possibility that Rick and I would ever get back together. I've finally been able to close that chapter in my life, and like I said its a huge burden lifted off my shoulders. Now its nothing but happy days full of smiles and laughter up ahead for me.

Thanks again ladies for responding!

Lilly, you are a very strong person and I admire you for that. Can you blame Rene for being scared...he just doesn't want to lose you. And from what it sounds like...I don't think he will.
I'm very happy that you have found someone that makes you truly happy. We all deserve that, especially after we've already had our hearts broken before.

Take care of yourself & Rene... :)

Wtg4MikeP- Thanks gurl! I most certainly will take care of Rene, and I've made it clear that I aint goin nowhere. He completes me in every way. :) I'm stayin right by his side, right where I belong. No more hurting or heartbreaks for me... I found my soulmate.

Hi Lily,
I have followed your posts, and remember when you and Rick broke up. I am pleased to see that he has given you the closure you needed. I voted that he will let you go. The letter sounds sincere, and he seems to understand that it's over and you have moved on.
I wish you and Rene all the best- you deserve love and happiness, and I am so glad you have found those things in Rene.

I think he still loves you and wants to be with you! I think he is being nice because he doesn't want to mess up anything between you guys in the future.

Lily, I think that this was some very well needed closure for the both of you, expecially for you.

I think as far as Rene goes, he needs to have trust and faith in your feelings for him. The only person that can let Rick be a threat, is you, and I dont think you see him as a threat anymore.

I hope that you are able to put this part of your life behind you and proceed with your future. You are a very sweet person and any man that has you as part of his life, should feel extremely lucky!

Lily I'm glad that you are getting the closure that you needed to really let go. I'm not sure if Rick will come looking for you or not. But I really don't think it will matter cause you are happy with Rene and that is all that matters.. You know deep down inside that Rick will never change and that will keep you from him if he comes around you... and we are here to remind you of the pain he put you thought and how far you have come after all of it....

What's up Lily girl! Miss said it nicely!! and I agree it was great closure for ya! I know you aint leavin Rene...I mean we gotta become famous wit our rapper men! ;)

I been gone for about a wk. But just wanted to stop by and Thank everyone who posted.

This letter made me reflect quite a bit. And it made me feel a great deal of reassurance as well. And although I cannot know for sure what Rick is thinking/ or planning. I personally think that this is a real goodbye. It was a long bumpy road for the both of us, and I think he finally was able to let go.

Now as for what I know for sure is that I love Rene with all my heart. And this letter just convinced me even more of what I already knew and felt, that no matter what, or who tries to come in the picture, it will not affect my love, and my relationship with Rene because he is my soulmate, and my true love, and our love is so strong, and so pure all at once. This I know for sure.

Again, thanks everyone for posting! :)

well in my honest opion no one knows what someone in prison is thinking. Especially if they have been in there a long while. All they have to do is think really. so after a while they might start changing the way they think and the way they act and talk even.but anyways i think he might come looking for you because there is the old saying " you never realize what you have until you've lost it" so he night be thinking that way. thats how i would have taken it. if i were you i would really think about writing him back saying that you want to take him up on the offer of being friends and tell him about your new guy, and then see what he has to say. well if you want to talk any other time you can pm me.

I really don't know. I think that if he were being released in the near future, he definitely would come into contact with you. But in 3 years much can also change for him as well.
I really don't know though. Time definitely will tell. Always does.

lily,

Hey girl we havent talked in awhile. Sorry about that gotta call and catch up. I think that you should just tell Rene that he should see the happiness he brings you just by looking into your eyes. Let him know that your heart is in his hand and you hope that his is in yours this way that you can be one. that would let him know that you aint going no where.

True Rick wants to be friends forever but you know what you went thru with him and you know what you have now. I am glad that you finally heard from Rick also cause you needed this.

TTYL

jillian

Good Luck with the new love in your life and may you both find enjoyment in each others company. God Bless You both and dont forget your FAMILY at PTO.............

Woundedangel- Thanks! Yes, I have found a GREAT man and I'm not willing to let him go. He completes me in every way imaginable. Their seems to be wedding plans for December, but its still not official. All I know is that I want to spend the rest of my life with this man.

Oh, and I would never ever forget about my PTO family. I'm still around for anyone who needs me. TAKE CARE AND GOD BLESS!

I don't know him or you but here is what I thought.....

The letter sounds sincere but the fact it took him 4 months to send it tells me he was waiting for you to see if he would hear from you in that time. If he is getting out soon expect your phone to ring. He may be saving face...trying to just give you what you want. That is what I did when my ex broke up with me. I just said "ok," b/c I was so hurt. You will hear from him again....this is not the end. Go live your life and live it well.
Best wishes. Ciao.

I think only time will tell if this is truely the final goodbye or not,he has to understand that you have moved on and are happily sharing your life with someone else now,but i think being behind bars you hold onto the past,the memories and love you shared with someone.
Best of luck honey with your new life

Hugs
Spitfire

Thanks everyone! I've managed to put this behind me. Rick is up for parole in December, but with all the trouble he kept getting into its is unlikely that he will make it. I dont know how he's been doing for a while now since I have not been in communication with him, nor do I ever want to. If he serves his full term he will be out in June 2008.

No matter when Rick gets out, I will no longer be their for him. I have moved on, and if he tries looking for me I will make that more than clear that I want nothing to do with him. Rene and I plan on getting married in February, and I truly dont plan on letting this guy go. I have found my dream guy, my best friend, my soulmate, he is my everything, and completes me in every way. And soon, we will spend the rest of our lives together.

Thanks again everyone!

lol you left this man why? :)

Girl,

I'm happy that you got you a new man. I think that if you just keep reassuring him that he is your one and only that he will be fine. Congrads...


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